无聊的城市，寄生着无聊的人们。
无聊的人们，于是议论起无聊的话题。
无聊的话题，于是消失在这无聊的城市中。
让无聊就消失在无聊中。
让无聊在无聊中漫度而终吧。
让无聊的城市再无聊中恢复安静吧。

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so all a sudden I realize that all along I have been disrupting others.

Am I meant to be a self dependent strong person? Am I capable? I know i am not alone, but am I capable to deal with all the loneliness? Am I meant to be dealling all this without being taught. but start solving at the begining?

too many questions to answer.

oh well. I should and must apologize to someone I am sorry I screwed with you before. and so what sorry can't help to recover anything.

anyways....

 

too much thinking about the past.

should I start looking froward a bit?

moving

more working hours

get graduated

get a job

pay the damn loan back

trying to solve the family problem? maybe just let stay the way as it. Or moving again. ... dont really know about that far yet

 

remember i saw this somewhere before " to love but not to hold"

truly it is.I should let them go whereve or do whatever. I should stop f**king disrupt them. No not any more.

I need to be the persone I meant to be? yes?

I need to be strong to deal with my own stuff without learning about them first.

I shall just jump from the learning section to the solving section directly. no matter good or bad. take it all

so Do whatever all of you need to accomplish. I will be fun by myself. actually i am not by myself yet, I still have the dog .

so yea I am smoking as it is now.

Why? I dont know

it's funny right! tell so  what it is not really at all.

sometimes just wanna let rules get da f**k away. all bs

just let me screw myself a bit. after all this is my pity life...

let me abandon everything just for a little while.

but dont worry the dog is still with me.

lost in the sea of peaple

lost in the N^x assignment questions

lost in the papers

lost in the park when I was walking the dog.

so i got lost

boredom ~

the winter lost to nowhere in plus 7 deg C temp.

and my key "P" is lost just now.

need to make this laptop to get lost

so a new one can be purchased

but on top of everything, i need to get lost first. so i can be found again

the question is by whom or by what

 

 

 

狗比人幸福啊， 多数是不可否认地。 最近一直因为睡觉比较困难才越发感受到俺家的狗比我幸福！ 多少次我躺在床上到天亮她都是呼呼睡到天亮，看我醒着故意气我，过来晃悠了一下，换个地儿继续睡～郁闷，狗真是幸福。 每每学习到口渴，发现tnnd杯里又空了。 又要自己去倒水。 俺家的狗呢，没有水喝（以前会跑去厕所偷水喝，然后回来试图给我个湿吻，汗~ 不就是没有给她加水吗，这么整我）现在没有水喝，叮叮当当的敲盆子。学会抗议了～ 汗又要加水！！做狗很幸福啊～

每天回家，要伺候她吃，再当跟班的出去带她玩。 做狗好幸福啊～。 特别是 ，偶尔要给她做吨好了，不然小家伙会绝食抗议。以前自己买零食的钱现在都变成给狗买零食的了。 以前喝酒的钱，现在要放起来，万一哪天，小家伙不舒服，要去看医生，我又蒸发了200 左右。 做狗真的不错！！

不过，小家伙也挺会哄人的。我不开心就非要粘着我，直到我肯笑，肯扔球和她完才罢休。小家伙毛茸茸的，很舒服，不国抱是抱不了，她肥了。呵呵 (好吃好睡的，汗！我好像又瘦了，狗真幸福）